"Right now, I feel guilty for even talking to SJ. Especially about race stuff! What does it say about me that I willingly left a party with a bunch of idiots, but the white person who does treat me as an equal is the one I most wanna run away from right now? I can't believe I told SJ all that stuff! I mean, she's cool and everything but...I'm shaking my head right now" (pg. 51).